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Accomplishments, Albert Einstein, Believing In Yourself, Fashion, Goals, God's Plan, Heels, Imagination, Inspiration, Inspiring, Know What You Write, Knowing Yourself, Knowledge, Mark Twain, Paris HIlton, Stilettos, Struggles, Weight Loss
Today we walk in this fabulous chiffon heels because it is HOT outside & chiffon is just the fabric for a steamy, summer night.
They always tell aspiring writers to write what you know via Mark Twain’s words of wisdom. It makes sense right? You wouldn’t want a fashion marketing major such as myself to give you instructions on how to deliver a baby or how to rotate your tires. So I will stick to the facts of MY life that I do know…
I know that I love and hate my twenties with the same bitter sweetness as taking a generous bite of lemon-meringue pie. I went to college where I had some of the best times of my life with amazing people that shared the same love for fashion and high heels with. I helped produce a fashion show that was held in the Moore Theater in Seattle for 1,500 guests. I got to spend time with the savvy fashion designers helping them put together their lavish costumes and work along side some pretty amazing and talented people. I learned from the best mentors and also learned a lot about myself. My twenties have been filled with fantastic friendships and memories as they draw to an end. I think the most bitter part of my twenties has been getting to know myself and what I want. As I see EVERYONE around me getting married and having babies, I feel nothing but genuine happiness for all of them. I don’t feel sad, or envious, or jealous that I haven’t had a grand wedding yet or 2.5 kids with a white picket fence and a dog. How can I feel resentment towards all of those that I love and care about when they have achieved a true level of happiness? I can’t. But i have always marched to the beat of my own drum. I have always been a “late bloomer,” if you will. I have never wanted to do things because everyone else was doing it, or it was cool. I’ve always felt secure enough in my own skin to just let life happen. I can’t write about what life would be like had I gotten married and had kids by now because I don’t know. We can play the “what if” games all we want with our lives, but we never truly know what would have happened. All I can write about is what I know…
I know that throughout this self-improving journey there are many things about myself that I want to change, not just my weight. I have always had a plan in life. Up until my final days of college, I saw all of my plans through. It was easy, you went to school, learned, passed the tests and graduated. Then came life! Having to actually apply what you learned, compete with people who are far more experienced and talented as you are, learning how to take rejection from future employers, and the list goes on…After the point of graduating high school I didn’t have a solid working plan. I had a lot of plans that never happened because I didn’t follow through. To understand my mindset, you would have to be an extremely creative person. To understand what it is like to try to maintain focus on one project and to see that project through fully, you would have to be inside of my head. Some people see me as flighty or fickle, but I just see things different. I see purple skies, wildflowers in meadows of all different shades and textures, I see diamond rings in the night sky and high heels in my dreams ALL the time. So I guess one can’t truly pass judgement onto someone else unless they truly understood why they see things the way that they do or walk a day in their stilettos. There are so many things that I love to do and am passionate about that it truly is a struggle to harness that and to just pick one thing. I don’t want to come across as fickle. I want to learn how to focus my creative talents and utilize them to the highest level I can. I want people that I admire to take me seriously. When I graduated I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do with my degree. I was a lost little Yorkshire Terrier with a pink satin bow in the large city of Seattle just trying to find my way home. So here’s what I do know: I am so VERY passionate about writing.
I guess I should have caught onto this at a younger age because I always found myself jotting down notes that came to mind from my insane imagination. I would sit in my room when I was ten and write on this old beat up computer that I had. I would write for hours about who knows what, but I was writing my heart out. I would write in journals throughout the years about how I felt or just what I did that day. From there it has slowly become my number one passion in life, maybe even more so than SHOES! Right, I did just say that! I guess it only took me twenty-nine years to figure out what my absolute love is, some might say that I am ahead of the game considering a lot of people never truly identify their absolute passion. Now the trick is to turn that passion into a paycheck! And that is what I am working on as we speak.
Write what you know. My cousin Jessie a few years back told me that she was writing a book. She was very elaborate when explaining her outline and characters. There were two things that popped into my mind as she was explaining this to me: 1) “Wow this sounds like a kick-ass story line” & 2) “Oh hell no, now I need to write a book too!” We have always shared the same competitive spirit and this is what drove me to write a novel. I haven’t told too many people about it because I don’t know if it will ever get published or not, but I wrote about parts of my youth and implemented it into a story that even charmed me. I am educating myself about how to reach an agent and the publishing phases (which are almost as intense as starting your own business!) FYI on the wine charms, still love them, but really want to focus on my writing so its still in the “hobby stages” right now.
I don’t know how people lose hundreds of pounds as I am struggling to hit 100 pounds lost. Yes I did use the word “struggle.” I thought my momentum was back for Weight Watchers I had a few really powerful days where I tracked everything that I ate and it was fabulous. But then the motivation took me on a roller coaster ride. Ups and downs and all arounds. So here is what I do know…I know that I want to hit my goal weight. I know that I want to shed this darn weight and continue to inspire others. I know that I don’t want to give up and go back to the old me, because frankly I have no fat clothes to go back to I gave them all away! I know that there is absolutely no turning back. So what’s a girl to do? Find something that is going to work for me in the second half of my weight-loss journey. Weight Watchers works a million times over there is living proof of that all over the world. I am living proof. But sometimes you just hit that level where you need a new challenge. So with all of the knowledge that I have in my crazy-flighty-creative mind I have come up with a food plan of my own. I am in the beta-testing stages right now and I am still going to attend WW meetings, but I am going to try out my new plan and see how it works for ME. I have a little more flexibility and I don’t have to track everything that I eat, but there is more work-out involved to make up for that fact. I am still watching every food decision that I make and it’s still the exact same food that I am eating while doing WW, but I just don’t have to track, which has been my biggest struggle lately. I will keep you posted on how my tailored plan works. I don’t have any feedback to share about my weight because frankly I haven’t weighed-in in a couple of weeks. But hopefully I will have a number to share with you in the next blog.
I know that I want my life to start and I genuinely want to be happy. I know that someday I do want to meet the man of my dreams and marry him and maybe have some babies, that’s still debatable. I know that I want to be a writer and make a living off of something that is so amazing to me that it feeds my soul every time I practice it. I know that God has a plan and a path for me and I feel that He is drawing me closer to executing it. I know that I may lack focus where others flourish, but when I zone in and put my mind to something I excel above and beyond. I know that my perseverance is one that can’t be matched by anyone else. I know that I am so close to having everything I have ever wanted, I just have to be a little more patient because without that hope and faith, we are zombies walking along a dark and lonely road.
The first quote that I read I loved. “The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination.” ~ Albert Einstein
I want to say thank you for reading my 30th blog! As I share my intimate thoughts and moments that I have experienced I do it with great hope that I can inspire anyone who reads my words. I don’t just want to inspire weight-loss, but just overall improvement. I want to sprinkle some positive words on everyone who reads my blog. I’ve had people ask if they could pass my blog along to their friends and/or family and I absolutely welcome that! So no need to ask please share with anyone you may know that needs some inspiring 🙂
Time to take off Ms. Hilton’s shoes and put them back into my closet. It’s too hot to wear shoes anyways, let’s just go barefoot seriously!